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Breathe.
Breathe.

Listen to these lyrics...

Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?

I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
Like today never happened


It gets better eventually. It always does.

We learn to forgive each other. And eventually ourselves.

Kenny spent most of the evening curled in my lap. After he fell alseep, I spent the rest of the night figuring out how to clean up gross mop water mixed with cat litter on a garage floor. Let's just say it destroyed 2 dust pans, six towels, one mop, one pair of jeans and a pair of shoes. Don't even ask.

We're okay. Kate and Zach were both getting sick, that didn't help anything. They're feeling better now. Zach had a great game on Tuesday.

And I was so far ahead, pretty much done with my shopping after my annual Veteran's Day outing with Deb. I was feeling pretty smug. How is it that suddenly I'm so far behind? Bake pumpkin bread, make fudge, wrap last minute things, pack, arrange kennel for the dogs and caretaker for the cats and wrap up my old job and I feel like I've been chasing my tail all day. The good news is, all day I thought it was Thursday. So when Zach said, "Mooooom, it's WEDNESDAY!" I gained a whole day! Hooray!

A few pics:









I'm beginning to worry about Zach and his penchant for odd footwear. Note the Santa socks while he coaches. And the twin tube socks with ZachAttack2 during basketball. Your guess is as good as mine.














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"Dare You To Move"

Welcome to the planet
Welcome to existence
Everyone's here
Everyone's here
Everybody's watching you now
Everybody waits for you now
What happens next
What happens next

[Chorus]
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened before

Welcome to the fallout
Welcome to resistance
The tension is here
Tension is here
Between who you are and who you could be
Between how it is and how it should be

[Chorus]

Maybe redemption has stories to tell
Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell
Where can you run to escape from yourself?
Where you gonna go?
Where you gonna go?
Salvation is here

I dare you to move
I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor
I dare you to move
I dare you to move
Like today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened
Today never happened before

Comments

  1. Hi Shelley,

    Not sure if you know this band or song, but it popped into my head when I read today's entry.


    Smile
    by The Jayhawks

    Wake up, put your shoes on
    Take a breath of the northern air
    And rub those eyes
    Genuflect beneath the starry skies

    Before you climb the mountain
    First the foothills must appear
    Step high and light
    And take up your staff and shining armor

    (Chin up, chin up)
    You don't really have a problem
    (Chin up, chin up)
    In your hour of despair

    And smile when you're down and out
    (Find something inside you)
    Smile when you're down and out
    (Find something inside you)
    Smile

    The stars on the horizon
    Stretch as far as the eyes can see
    They represent the souls of those like you and me

    And smile when you're down and out
    (Find something inside you)
    Smile when you're down and out
    (Find something inside you)
    Smile

    (Chin up, chin up)
    You don't really have a problem
    (Chin up, chin up)
    In your hour of despair

    And smile when you're down and out
    (Find something inside you)
    Smile when you're down and out
    (Find something inside you)


    Thinking of you.
    --Patti in NJ

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  2. Hi Chelle
    I'm glad to read that things are better. Those bad days even though they might be far apart they seem to last forever. We are here in Arizona for another week. Nothing profound to say just know I am thinking of you.
    Sue

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  3. Soooooo glad to hear things are better, hooray! Wishing the Meyers clan a Merry Christmas.....am sending you lots of love and hugs, and best wishes for a better new year.

    cathyb
    www.lessonsfromlou.blogspot.com

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  4. Merry Christmas. Sherri

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  5. Michelle and family,

    MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

    Thinking of you today!! I hope it's a great day for you and your family!! :)

    Love and hugs,
    Kathy
    from Iowa

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  6. Oh Chelle ... once again I can relate. I am often overwhelmed by the thought that I am in this parenting thing alone. I find myself wishing that there was someone, anyone (okay, really I want Fred) to step in and take over. I want someone else to tell her to pick up her room, her bathroom and to stop being so mean to her mother! And then we have moments like yesterday when she and I (and her new My Twin doll) sat on the sofa watching Ghost and laughing at Whoopi and getting teary in the sad parts .... those moments I don't want to share with anyone ... so I guess I have to take the good with the bad, but I gotta tell you .... I completely underestimated what being an only parent would be like.

    Just know you really aren't alone. There are so many of us who would jump in and ask your kids to clean the floors, or pick up their bedroom. (BTW Kate has nothing on Olivia ...) We both know that all we have to do is ask once and they hear us ... when you ask it often falls on deaf ears. Well, at least that's the way it is in my house!!!

    Hope your Christmas was happy and the holiday break brings you much deserved rest and finally peace.

    Love You!

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  7. Thinking of you and your family today. Remembering Dave's Birthday Dec. 28th. I did remember it on Dec. 28th- just didn't know what to write. Hang on... two steps forward and a few back... then forward agian.... at your pace.

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