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Friday, August 5, 2005 1:38 AM CDT

Deb's right. Shampooing carpets, got the entryway and hallway painted. Grout still waiting for Denny, I guess!

Dave was feeling pretty weak today, but is awake more and quite alert and with it.

We heard from UW. They are questioning whether what shows on the scan is actually tumor growth or necrosis from the gamma knife. I was quite surprised by this, but they were the ones that did the gk, and know better than I, besides, that would actually be good news. So..... they say, get an MRI spectroscopy (a scan that can help determine if the tissue in question is growing/alive or dead, and stay on the CPT-11/Avastin. We meet with Dr. Sacks tomorrow to decide.

Peach Basket is this weekend. Zach and Kate are both very excited. The kids have had a good week. They went swimming with Deb & kids, Kenny has been doing BDAD every day and went to the pool again today, Zach has been riding bikes with friends, today he and a bud rode all the way to Bennington Lake to fish. I looked on our deck thermometer and it said 109*! Crazy kid. He came home covered in mud from hunting frogs. Kate's been all over the neighborhood, the McEuen's have kind of taken her in, and she's been able to go lots of places with them. Bob & Mindy took the kids on Tuesday, they had a lot of fun playing with the little ones.

Sigh. Kate got her school supplies yesterday. She can't wait for school to start. Kenny can't wait for football to start. Zach is more in my camp, mourning that the start of school is coming so soon. And on my birthday no less! How dare they take my kids on my birthday???? The nerve. I know I'm supposed to look forward to the first day of school and some time to myself, but I like having the kids around. They're sweet (most of the time), funny and very interesting people. Guess I'm a little biased.

Anyway, it's just one more sign that time is marching on, and I'm dragging my heels a little nowadays. I'm praying for God to give me what I need to keep moving forward.

In His grip,
Shelley

Right Here by Jeremy Camp

All the world is watching
All the world does care
Even when the world weighs on my shoulder now,
These feelings I can bear
Because I know,
That you’re here,

(CHORUS:)
Everywhere I go,
I know you're not far away,
You're right here
You're right here, yeah

All these thoughts I’ve wasted,
All these thoughts I fear,
Even when these thoughts have faded,
I still know that you’re here,
So I can rest my hope in you

(Repeat Chorus)

Many of times that I have felt alone,
Many of times that I have the world was crashing down upon me,
You always stood here by my side,
You were always there ...

Everywhere I go,
I know you're not far away,
You're right here
You're right here, yeah

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