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Still in the hospital

Friday, June 3, 2005 11:09 AM CDT

Kenny is off to Tacoma to compete in the State Special Olympics track meet. It's kind of scary for Mom, since he's going on his own this year, without Dave with him! He's growing up!

Dave's blood is still not at a therapeutic level, so they're going to keep him another day. He walked stairs yesterday and did great, so that was wonderful. He's pulling out of the morphine haze now, and is much more alert.

Dr. Sacks says perhaps tomorrow he can go home.

Thank you for your continued prayers.

Love, Shell

PS. Another song for you. God is always here. We know right where to find Him.

Artist: Matthew West
Song Title: You Know Where to Find Me

I saw your sky fall down today
Suddenly turned from blue to gray
Till one by one the raindrops
Turned to tears upon your face
Wish there was something I could do
Wish I could ease the pain for you
But I’ve never felt so helpless
It’s like you’re drowning right in front of me
And I’m reaching out but you can’t see
There’s something holding on to you so tight
So I guess this is all I say to you tonight
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting where I’ve always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you; I’m where I’ve always been
Right by your side
Right by your side
If the whole wide world is on your back
If the strength you need is the strength you lack
If you’re in a crowd but all alone
If you can’t stay here but you can’t go home
If you can’t answer all the whys
‘Cause you’re too tired to reach that high
I want you to remember
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting where I’ve always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you; I’m where I’ve always been
Right by your side
Right by your side
If the whole wide world is on your back
If the strength you need is the strength you lack
If you’re in a crowd but all alone
If you can’t stay here but you can’t go home
If you can’t answer all the whys
‘Cause you’re too tired to reach that high
I want you to, I need you to remember
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I will be waiting where I’ve always been
If you ever need me
You know where to find me
I have never left you
I’m where I’ve always been
Right by your side

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