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Prayer

Please pray for me.
And for my "enemies" too.
I've been praying all day.
I am in the midst of a conflict now.
Praying for wisdom to do the right thing by Kenny.
Praying for courage to be honest, even when it's hard.
Praying for discernment to know what the objective issues are.
Praying for kindness to temper the honesty.
Thank you for praying with me for guidance and for God to be present in this entire process.

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  1. Michelle you know we are behind you, all you need to do is ask. Will be praying for you and with you. If there is anything I can do please say so. God Bless you and the kids.

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  2. Oh Michelle
    Pray I will with all my heart and soul. I know God will direct you in the right direction and I know you will make the right decisions. God listens and guides. I think Dave will lead your heart as well and tell you what is best for Kenny. I love you and hope that peace will fill you and rest will aid you.

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  3. Michelle,
    Sounds to me from your entry that you are already well prepared for making a thoughtfull decision. However, if you need someone to listen and just bounce ideas around, I would be more than willing. Leading with your heart can be risky but you know it will always be the correct decision (of course tempered with a bit of common sense).

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  4. Hi Michelle,

    Just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for you and your family.

    Hugs and prayers from Iowa,
    Kathy

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  5. Chelle, dear,

    You got it. I'm so sorry you are in the midst of conflict now. It is very difficult to mother teenage sons without their fathers, I know this. Rely on God as I know you do, He will steer you in the right direction. Sending you prayers my friend, prayers and hugs. love u.

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  6. Mouat Family2/11/2007 6:08 PM

    You are never far from our thoughts and always, always in our prayers!!! We stand with you, or better put, kneel with you before our gracious and loving Lord. Let us know if there is anything else we can do for you...ANYTHING!!
    All our love,
    Will, Stacy and the boys
    mouatw@hotmail.com

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  7. Michelle, You know I'm with you 100% and love and care about Kenny. Saw him up at Bluewood last weekend. It was nice to see him. I don't know what your stuggle is but I do know personally when things were so difficult with Ben that if I prayed and let God do and lead it all fell into place. It is so hard for me not to plan it all out, be in control. I pray that God will lead the way and it will feel right. You and Dave have done such an incrediable job with Kenny. I'm sorry for your struggle. Take care, Sherri

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