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Thursday, July 21, 2005 12:19 AM CDT

CANCER SUCKS!

We went to the cancer center today. As expected, Dr. Sachs wants to move Dave's MRI up sooner because of all the symptoms he's been having. So the MRI is tomorrow at 4:00 pm. Please, please pray your hardest, most earnest pleas on Dave's behalf.

He could not have avastin today because he has a HUGE bruise on his neck where he fell and hit the edge of the table.

He could not have CPT-11 because the doc doesn't want to give him any more CPT-11 until they know for sure whether the tumor is growing or not.

We have an appointment Monday to get results of the scan.

Doc said to keep Dave's decadron at the 8 mg level for now, until we know what's going on.

We're getting a walker today. Getting into the cancer center was horrible today, it almost killed both of us. Hopefully, Dave will be able to manage a walker. If not, it will have to be a wheelchair.

We're in the midst of painting and getting ready to do some work in the bathroom to make it safer for Dave. The plywood floor in the bathroom is just not gonna cut it any more. And we really need to have a shower in the tub in the main bathroom, because it takes Dave so long to do everything that the kids can't get in to shower. Sigh. And: EEEK. Like home improvements/repairs were just the fun adventure we need right now. Okay. Enough whine. I'm just thankful for Dads (mine and Dave's) who are so generous with their help and carpentry skills.

Dave's sleeping now. Before he fell asleep, he said, "I'm sorry." My heart is broken.

Love, Michelle

PS. Heard this song on the radio on the way back from the cancer center. No matter how we despair, there is hope, and our lives are worth enough that He died for us.



I Know by Seventh Day Slumber

Wonder what can be so bad
That it makes you want to die
I wonder what could be so tragic
Makes you want to take your life
You have your Savior on the cross
While you sit on the throne
Put yourself up on that cross
Put your Savior on the throne

And I know it's hard to take what's happening
And I know life is tough sometimes
And I know it seems like there's no hope for you
And I know your life is worth more than you can see

It's hard to see beyond your pain
When you feel so dead inside
It's hard to see what you've been given
It's hard to find the hope in life

And I know it's hard to take what's happening
And I know life is tough sometimes
And I know it seems like there's no hope for you
And I know your life is worth more than you can see

And I say look at Jesus' hands
Those scars are there for you
You know He understands
What you're going through

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