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4 years

Official video here, with Matthew West's story.

(Written August 23, 2009)

Four years ago I awoke to Dave's last breath.
To questions that had no answers
in my little girl's eyes.

And I knew that my world was broken
beyond repair.
That the rift in my heart
would remain.

We are healed of a suffering only by experiencing it to the full.
Marcel Proust

Grief is like that.
Sometimes, I can put it away.
In my pocket.
Out of sight.

But like a child,
it will not be ignored for long.
It squirms and pokes
and demands my focus.

And if I persist
in pretending it's gone,
it will rise up,
in a giant wave
and sweep away everything.

Everything but the
of a wounded soul.

I find that the more it becomes
part of me,
the more I allow

the more whole I become.
So I make friends with it.

This force that has
shaken me,
and my children.

It becomes part of
the way I think.
The way I talk.
The way I love.

I imagine that I can
run my fingers along the

Zach's Senior Slide Show

Can't believe he's a senior.
Dave would be so proud of Zach.
Zach is an amazing person.

Come watch him grow up!

And Steve, I promise a newsy update soon. There's a lot. Including a cougar encounter. And NOT the Wazzu kind!

Zach's Senior Pictures

Graduation 2009

So...the biggest news - Kenny graduated!

It's too amazing!

He hugs just like his Dad.

He's been so lucky to have such great friends.

And family...

We had a great barbeque and party the next day to celebrate!

Thanks, Matt...for everything.

It's unbelievable to me that Dave is not here.
The summer that Dave was getting sicker, Kenny went to WaHi football camp in Moscow for the first time. We took a trip over there. Dave got to see Kenny on the field, in a WaHi jersey. By the time the season started in the fall, Dave was gone.

And I had the same feeling then that I did at graduation. How is it possible that these things are happening without him?

I wanted to feel proud. Proud of Kenny for all he's accomplished. Homecoming King, Most Inspirational Player (twice), the Lou Jacky Award, all his medals, his letters. And proud of our little family, for making it through. And I did. I really did.

But mostly I felt that reeling sense of unreality. Like it wasn't really happe…

Bear Schedule

Tuesday, June 2 5:30 pm WWCC
Sunday, June 7 1:00 pm Selah
Tuesday, June 9 5:00 pm Hanford
Saturday, June 13 Pendleton Tournament
Sunday, June 14 Pendleton Tournament
Tuesday, June 16 5:30 pm Richland
June 18-21, Bandit Bash Tournament, Kennewick
Tuesday, June 23 5:30 pm, WWCC
June 25-28, Palouse Summer Series, Pullman
Tuesday, June 30 5:00 pm, Lewiston, ED
July 2-6, Twin Falls Cowboy Classic, Twin Falls, ID
Tuesday, July 7 4:00 pm, WWCC
July 9-12, Walla Walla Sweet Invitational, WWCC/Borleske/Murr
Tuesday, July 14 5:30 pm, WWCC
Thursday, July 16 5:30 pm, WWCC

Busy summer!

Memorial Day

For all the soldiers who stayed on the front lines,
so my children and I can sleep in peace tonight,
thank you.
Freedom isn't free.
Someone else's son paid for me.

An American Soldier
by Toby Keith

I’m just tryin’ to be a father
Raise a daughter and a son
Be a lover to their mother
Everythin’ to everyone
Up and at ‘em bright and early
I’m all business in my suit
Yeah I’m dressed up for success
From my head down to my boots
I don’t do it for money
There’s bills I that I can’t pay
I don’t do it for the glory
I just do it anyway
Providing for our future’s
My responsibility
Yeah, I’m real good under pressure
Being all that I can be
And I can’t call in sick on Mondays
When the weekend’s been too strong
I just work straight through the holidays
And sometimes all night long
You can bet that I stand ready
When the wolf growls at the door
Hey I’m solid, hey I’m steady
Hey I’m true down to the core

And I will always do my duty
No matter what the price
I’ve counted up the cost
I know the sacrifice
Oh and I do…

Meyer Family Travails

I know.
I know.
I'm sorry. I really am.

Update here.

Kenny seems to be stabilized on the medication he's on. We are STILL waiting to see a neurologist. I am very much not happy about this. There's a new neurologist in Walla Walla, but he's not approved for the medical coupon that Kenny has. Yes, the medical coupon that we never use because Kenny has insurance through my employer that's primary. And, yes, THAT one IS approved. Can they see him through that insurance? No. I should have just gone straight to Seattle. He hasn't had any further seizures since the first two.

He's getting ready for graduation. I can't believe he's graduating from high school. He's very excited. And we still have to get announcements out! You're all invited to an open house/bbq on Saturday, June 6, 2009 from noon-4 pm at our house!

Kenny ran track this spring for WaHi and for Special Olympics. He is a sprinter, running the 100, the 200, the 4x100 relay an…

Musella Foundation Video


Kenny had a second seizure tonight.
After three months, I thought we were home free.
Thought the first one was a fluke.
This one was not as long. Only a few minutes.
And when he woke up, which took about 15 minutes, he was quite himself, not out of his mind like he was last time.
We transported him to the hospital in the Suburban with the ambulance following right behind us, just in case.
They gave him ativan and started him on keppra.
We'll see his doc this week and schedule an appointment with a neurologist...the closest one is in the Tricities, and they're booked out over two months.
Pray for Kenny.
Pray for me.
He's sleeping peacefully now.
Wish I could.

Love, Shelley

PS. Please pray for a local family. One son was a classmate of Kate's. He died on April 1. Then his father died April 2. According to coworkers at WWCC, both deaths were suicides, and this is what Kate was told at school as well, but there hasn't been any "official" confir…

Kenny's Senior Presentation

Kenny Senior Presentation

And you can see his portfolio HERE.
Wish him all kinds of luck tonight!

Kate starts dance again tonight. It's a good day here, except that the baseball game got moved to tomorrow....and I'm gonna be in Seattle. *sniff*

Zach is 17!

Do you remember this?


Could he be any more adorable? I think NOT! The one of him on the couch, he was only 2 weeks old. Not quite two weeks. He was so strong. And he just kept growing. And learned to like girls. Kailee in particular.

But he still likes toys. Legos in particular.

And his sibs LOVE him!

To say nothing of the cousins!

Have you ever been so loved you just couldn't stand it??

We should all be so lucky!
And baseball is here. So what has the kid got to frown about anyway? He's starting catcher on the varsity squad and is loving every minute of it. Even though it's snowed, hailed and been 25 degrees. other folks in the household have been up to a few things, too!

I didn't get many pictures this year. Kate was in Ellensburg at a basketball tournament. Zach was at home. So I left Ellensburg and drove to Wenatchee to see Kenny on Saturday. The weather was ter…